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!Sunday, February 26, 2006
boring day... n its super hot today haix.. i hate the sun.. i am deprived... of music.. i am scared... of results i am sian diaoz.. of work i am lost..
dunno y.. i felt veri lost today.. n aimless.. nothin to do.. i juz on the tv to watch anything tt's on tv.. tt's so despo.. desperate to haf stuff to do.. but.. wad a boring day with nothin to do...
Shanny
; @ 8:53 PM
!Saturday, February 25, 2006
well.. it's confirmed... results coming out on 1st march.. quite scared.. thanx mr peh for the early information... coz i think i might be more scared if not informed earlier.. ahhaz. sharon was telling me her worries.. i understand.. well.. i am scared too..
looking at some pictures taken in SA... i tot i hated that sch alot.. but somehow.. i missed life there.. i missed life as a student, being able to slack, being able to chat with my frens in the cafe during all the long breaks, being able to have P.E (which i like), being able to pon maths lectures, being able to go out after sch, being able to do alot of stuff... hanging out with frens n classmates is not tt bad too... i missed life as a student alot... i dun like to work.. though i am richer than a student now..
going out soon.. guess toking to frens n catching up becomes so impt.. we nv knew its so hard to get tog again last time.. coz we talk to each other almost everyday.. imagine life as an adult next time.. u might not even haf time for family, let alone frens.. hmmmmmmmmmmmm.... sad!
well.. i am going out soon.. i wanna pamper myself!
Shanny
; @ 4:18 PM
!Saturday, February 18, 2006
juz last week.. i was feeling like shit.. reeli had nightmares bout Alvls.. i cannot stand it.. i dun wish to get it so fast last week.. but now.. i am sure i wanna noe my results the coming friday.. orh please.. asap plz.. the mental torment is reeli bad.. creating nightmares of my own.. reeli.. i believe wad i saw in the nightmares were my worries n it proves how frightened i am currently.. everytime ppl start to ask bout Alvls now.. my stomach feels weird.. i feel like vomiting as well.. i wonder during the results day, will i be running to the toilet frequently.. coz when i am nervous... everything in the stomach comes out..
i muz say.. i tried my best in every question i attempted.. i felt i did okie.. but who can be so confident to say he/she himself/herself will do super well.. i dun need excellent results.. i juz need something i deserve.. coz i reeli work so hard during my JC life.. gave up alot juz to study... i cannot imagine if i do badly.. can i take it.. coz nv in my life i reeli put in so much effort n time juz to study.. study is something so alien to me in pri n sec sch.. i hate studying.. nevertheless... i hope i can prepare myself for the worst.. everytime ppl tell me, or i keep telling myself.. dun hope for too much.. but i cannot.. i am juz a human being n wld haf dreams n hopes.. wad if i reeli cannot make it.. wad if... wad if.. many wad ifs... haix....
pplz.. as u can see.. i am reeli so stressed up... juz tt i dun reeli show it.. i can foresee myself running home to watch the news on monday.. i juz wanna hear the newscaster say "Alvls results release on friday, 24th feb" .. plz dun torture me anymore......
anyway.. my working hours change le.. from 7am to 5.30pm!~ i like going home earlier.
Shanny
; @ 9:24 PM
!Saturday, February 11, 2006
the week passed too slowly n as usual.. i onli came online during the weekend.. maybe next time.. i will updae my blog once per week... better than nothin la... orh.. alot of albums coming out... means.. no money! haix... so sad... the thought of working till end of june sounds like earning alot of money.. but... but.. its boring... to do the same old things every week...
orh.. i kinda witnessed a bus accident near my place, at the rd junction near my hse yesterday.. thinking tt i might be on that 187 which was hit, i reeli understood how lucky i was.. i cld be on tt 187 if tt movie which i watched with bena started at 8.45pm... well pplz.. treasure life now.. coz u might not noe wad will happen or wad cld haf happened.. right? coz of tt.. i tot to myself.. i shld not regret wad i have done or asked.... or i shld reflect wad i shld have done n asked.. sounds abit like 'telling the right things' but its reeli true.. n they r my heart-felt words...
hmmm... my sis asked me go hongkong with her.. shld i? coz her own frens r going too.. i dun reeli like it.. it will be quite nice to have each other also ma... hmm.. consider consider.. but i will definitely go somewhere before i go to university... muahahahaz! thinking of where to go.. readers!!! any suggestions? hahaz..
i missed my nanhua frens... those in army and those working..
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